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Long time didn't blog...
Do not have any idea what to blog actually...
I even do not know what to crap...
*die*

Any idea what I should blog about???
Anyway, I think it would be better for me to finish my assignment before
I start to blog a long post...

Actually got idea...
but do not know should I blog it out...
Because it seem like a very stupid blog post...

Anyway...
Monday need to submit my last assignment...
Tomorrow need to type into computer...

Would be done in no time...
Then I can start blog a long post...

Since it been ages since I last blog...

~Sorry~

hAIr

I'm wondering should I let it grow or should I cut it again

and keep it short...

Well, can say I never cut so short for a very long time...
Should be Standard 5 till now...
Nope...That time not as short as now...
Anyway...
it is very very very long ago then...

There are reasons why all this while I never cut short...

It is because when I'm still a kid(till 7 years old)...
My grandaunt never let me had a long hair...
She let me had a coconut hair...
Well...I can say it is very ugly...
Is my nightmare of being call coconut hair...>.<

Then...there are twice I cut short again...
and the result turn out to be very very very bad...
That are the reason I never cut short again...

Till....
Last year....Something gone wrong in my brain...

Which make me decided to cut it short again...
Luckily it turn out to be nice...
Or else....I wanted to die again...

As for now...
erm...actually...I can say this is a crapping post...
because I do not know what I am talking about...
Just know I need to update only....>.<

Okay...
Back to the topic...
as for now...
I am thinking should I let it grow???
Well, actually I quite miss my long hair...
because I can tie it...
but it do looks old on me...

So I do not know what to do...
and about my front hair...
It will never grow long...haiz...

Each time when it almost get long...
I cut it again...

This time my front hair...
I cut bang...

I can conclude that...
Cute doesn't work on my age anymore...
So better keep it long for my front...
and I already decided to keep my back hair long too...
and do rebonding....
Hehe...

That's all...
Bye...^^

~IdOL~

Erm...
Let me think how to start it...


Well,
this is blog post not going to say which idol I like or love...
but which idol I would set them as my target...
or should I say I wanted to learn from them...

I don't really had many idols I would classified them under this...
Those idols which will inspire me...
There are just two in my mind only actually...
Idols would be celebrity (singer, movie star) right???
I think so...

Ai Otsuka

She is the first person I would like to learn from...
It is because of her carefree behavior...
and I love her quotes of life which is laugh at everything...
It seem like insane to laugh at everything...
But it would be better to be happy than sad right???
and by laughing...you could live longer...
She looks like a happy go lucky girl for me...
and she seem face everything optimistically...
Well, I also do adore her skill

or ability...
To be able to compose and sing song...

Kim Jaejoong
Well, I just set him as one of the idol which would inspire me not too long ago....
It is not because I wanted him 

to be my boyfriend or whatsoever...
It is because of one of his tattoo...

I found that tattoo meaning is quite meaningful...
So I decided to set him as the idol which inspire me...
the tattoo which read "Deferto Neminem"...
Which means accuse no man....
This words make me came out with a conclusion which is....
No matter what happen...
Don't blame others...
And I did add something into it...
Don't blame other...but yourself maybe...
What had happen no use of blaming...

because it is us who decided to let it be this way...
So no matter good or bad the results turn out to be...
Don't blame others...
If want to blame...
Blame our self...
What had happen...
Just let it be...No point looking back and regret...

Okay...
This is the two idols which inspire me so far...
Maybe will increase in the future...
Hahaha...

That's all for this post...
because I am getting tired and don't know what I am typing already...
or else I will start crapping....
Nightz....Bye...

I'm bAck

haha...
It seem I been wander away from farm for quite a long time...
Now I'm back again...
but with a more busy life to handle due to study...

Ermmmm...
Why I didn't upload my blog...
Well, is family matter...
Which make me lost my mood to blog...
but I think everything is back to normal again...

Should got time to blog again...

Just wait for it...^.^
and sorry for long time didn't update...
I got lots of thing wanted to share...
but will upload it slowly...

2012 rEsOLUtIOn...

A New Year...
A new beginning...
So a whole new resolutions...

and I plan make it short and simple...
I am getting lazier...

1. *secret*
okay this is private and confidential...so not going to state it out...

2. Diet...
I got lots of fats to loss...I still think I am fat...
So this is a must...

3. Take care of appearance...

4. Read at least 10 novels...
Is a good start to plant a reading habit...

5. Keep quiet...
This is for my understanding only...
Sorry...

6. Be polite...
Every years also failed to do so...

7. Be more patient...
I found out that I lose temper easily...

8. Hardworking and determined...

9. Better resultz...

10. Learn to cook...

11. Save money and don't simply waste it...

12. Be less stubborn....

13. Appreciate everything and be grateful.

14. Blog more often...

15. Make changes...

That's all for it...
and I hope I can really bare all this in my mind...
hahaha....

Happy New Year everyone...
and wish it is a better year for you and me too...^^

yEAr End...

Time sure pass very fast...
Now it is already December...

I think I should come out with year 2012 resolution...

Well, I totally forgot about my 2011 resolution...

It seem all of it...
I accomplish nothing at all...
Or should I say that all is done half way only...

This is my 2011 resolution...
Looking back...I really did nothing after all...

I think I should keep on remind myself about the resolution I made...
Or I will forget about it again...
Maybe write it on a piece of paper...
And stick it in my room...
Or else I am doing useless thing again...

My first 2011 resolution is losing weight...
Well, I did it...

But half way...
I planned to lose 10 kg and 7 inches...
Now I only loses 6 to 7 kilograms and 5 to 6 inches...

Can count as success too...I think so...

The second and the fourth also did halfway only...

And the rest is a total failure...
It seem I am a total failure person...

Anyway, 2011 is coming to an end...
Better look forward for a better year in 2012...
2011 is not a really good years for me...
Well, I am not going to say it out first...
Since it not yet the end of 2011...

So now...
I should think about my year 2012 resolution...
And keep on remind myself about it...^^

2Nd bLOg pOst...

This should be my second blog post...
Which open with another blog account...
and again...I forgot the email and password...
>.<

Plan to transfer it to this blog...

But I really forgotten the whole thing...>.<

Anyways...Here is it...

Love???

Actually what is love all about???I really don't understand love.It may make you happy but sometime make you sad.I remember someone told me before "in love, there is no correct or wrong". Is it funny because we will never know who is wrong and who is correct?
Every person view love has it's own meaning.Some people may be very generous in love.They won't mind sacrifice because they think it is worth it.Some people may be selfish.They can't own you,so they don't want other people to own you.Actually like what my friend said, there is no one who is correct or wrong.Just see how you judge it only.
I had not be in a relationship before but i had seen enough of it.It may be very nice thing to try on because you will be loved and cared by someone and that goes same to other people also.It may happen very fast as we cannot predict it but it may also ended very fast which is the saddest part.
As for those people who hang around and see,they will be sure to support their friend and blame the other. Isn't that funny?They just heard from one side and not both side and they can say who is good and bad.Actually outsider shouldn't care so much about it although you care.It is because if something really bad happen,outsider will being blame plus it is not our problem although it was our friend.The problem is the couple and they need to learn to solve it themself.If not they will not learn
Actually i am thinking that can anyone tell me what is love all about.I had saw them how they suffer in the word of love.It started with a small matter but don't know why later the matter will become very big and ended up in breaking up.
Actually when the problem started,it should be solve fast or later it will be worse.Then it may be no turning point already.Then cry also no tear.So for me,love may be quite a cruel matter.

1sT bLOg pOst

Well, my first blog post is in blogdrive...
and I am so happily to announce that...
I forgotten the username and password...
Really shit~~~

So I plan copy and paste what I first post on there into this blog post...
Actually I am trying to delete the blog...
But I forgot everything...
>.<

Well, this me(old me) that post this blog...
Don't know gone where already...
Hahahaha...

dReam....

If there has a dream,
there is a wish.If there has a wish,
there is a hope.
If there has a hope,
there is a faith.
But all of this will not come to you
if you did not work on it.
So you need to work hard to make your
dream, wish, hope and faith come true.
So don't easily give up,
believe in yourself that you can make you
dream, wish, hope and faith come true.
You have dream, wish, hope and faith
in YOURSELF.
So discover it yourself.

I'm dOnE

I had finished my exam...
but I am still lazy to blog...
I screw my management paper...
So my mood also screw up already...

Well, I got nothing to blog also actually...

hahahaha...

I sign up nuffnang...

So called to earn money...
I already expected to earn nothing...
but at least try it before...^.^

I will try to blog as much as possible...
Because I am trying to withdraw from facebook...
and pay more attention on blog...

Erm...
I made this decision because in facebook...
I feel got a lot of stalker...
I think it would be better for me to express my feeling in blog...

So please do look forward for my blog post...
and I wish I can do it...
haha...

Can't blame me...
Because Mr.Lazy really love me a lot...
I tried my best to dump it...
But I failed...
So don't blame me...(excuses...)

Anyway...I remember I promise to post more picture...
I will TRY my best...
Haha...See properly...
Is TRY and not DO...
So better don't expect much...

That's all...
Bye~~~

UpdAtE

Well, final coming...
and I really started nothing at all...
So, won't be updating till I done my final...

That's all...
Bye...Wish me all the best in final...>.<

stUdy~~~

I promised myself to revise everyday before I enter degree...

but it seem I failed to do so...
The GPA I had targeted...
Flew out of the window again...

Aikzzz...
My laziness still did not change after all...
Can anyone help me to change this bad behavior...
>.<

Final examination is around the corner...
Which is less than one month...
And "bravo"...
I not yet study anything yet...

In big big big trouble this time...
I knew how hard degree is...
But I still fooling around...

Dear Meredy...
Please promise yourself to start studying...
or your result would be very bad...
or maybe fail...
and you can't afford that...
So please start doing your revision NOW!!!

I hope I can...
All The Best To Myself...
T-T

tO bE ALOnE

I feel I am mentally and physically tired...
I need some time to refresh myself...

Recently, lots of thing had happen...
I am really really tired...
I forced myself not to think about it...
by believing it would turn out better...

It seem it doesn't turn out to be any better...
It become worse...Or shall I say nothing change...

I started to confuse what I should do...
It does not matter what I did...
It all also seem so wrong...
I do not know how to differentiate between right and wrong...
Can anyone tell me???

Sometime...
It turn out that I am crying when I am all alone...
The reason for it...I do not know...
I just knew that something is hurting me...

I need to act like nothing happen at all...
and hide all my feeling...

The thing I should know...
I knew already....
The thing I shouldn't know...
I also knew already...

and the choice that I got is to keep everything quiet...
Never ever say it out...

Now, I try to take everything in...

and keep quiet....
Just to protect them...
but who ever cares I get hurt or not???

Because do not want to hurt others....
I hurt myself...

I make myself the bad people...
Just to prevent the situation from bad change to worse...

I do not know how long I can stand this...
Maybe...one day I can't stand it...
Then it would be end of everything...

So are my pains and worries...

By telling me everything would be fine...

doesn't make it any better after all...

I need a solution to it...

After all...
Whichever solution that is taken...
There is always someone that would get hurts...

I feel so wanted to hide myself...
To be alone...
and clear my mind...

What I really want???
I do not know...

I just know...I knew too much thing already...

and I choose not to say it out...

~dUEt~

If the words spoken between you and me made a song
What would your favorite melody be?
Even if the world suddenly changed overnight
With you around, we can sing the duet
Neither complicated reality nor unforeseeable scenario
Ever scare us as long as we stay together
I’d rather lose the lights illuminating my life
Or dreams filling my mind than lose you 

Don’t forget, never forget, my heart is yours
I want you to know I’ll protect you with my everlasting eternal love
I love you, so love you, my everything is yours
So come here and stay with me


If the time you and I spend together became a song
I would play a little sad notes
Because happiness prefers friendly people
It’s a duplet filling the space between you and me with two notes
Neither groundless rumors nor startling bad jokes
Ever misleads us as long as we hear them together
I tell you what, your happy face is my motif
Whatever I do, I will never hurt you

I won’t change, will never change, my heart is yours
I want you to know I’ll wrap you with my wholehearted selfless love
I believe you, really believe you, my everything is yours
So come here and stay with me


Carrying you, carrying both of us
Colorfully played melody runs through the air
Carrying further, carrying our hearts, joining to become one
Not yet time to end, It’s a never-ending duet

It’s the treasure you always give me
Your tears, your smile, please share both with me
Together we can brighten up tomorrow even in dark, long, cold nights
So come closer and stay with me

Don’t forget, never forget, my heart is yours
I want you to know I’ll protect you with my everlasting eternal love
I love you, so love you, my everything is yours
So come here and stay with me

AssIgnmEnt...

Today I would be busy with assignment...
So won't be available to update my blog...

Now I do not know can rush finish or not...
This Friday need to submit the assignment already...

Headache...
Tonight I plan to burn midnight oil and no need to sleep...